Apathy

Apathy: lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern.

I'm not a scientist of the brain, but sometimes I think it would be an interesting field. To those of the population who understand the neurotransmitters in our brain and how chemical reactions in our brain effect our emotions maybe my current state would make more sense. Realistically my current situation probably should make more sense even to a non brain scientist as myself.

I don't consider myself to be a traditionally apathetic person, but I don't know how many people do. What concerns me is what if the apathy sneaks up on you?

I'm a passionate person. Lately though, I've become less - mostly just when it comes to work. And I struggle with that, because what if it's the day by day minutiae that wears passionate people down until they're 55, have been working the same job their whole life and lack anything that keeps their fire lit.

Can you become the person you would hate to become via the small compromises you make with yourself for the "greater good?" Arguably the answer has to be yes. I just don't know if in this instance detection (knowing that this can / is occurring) naturally facilitates future prevention.

Sincerely,
The girl who doesn't want to live vicariously through her children in the future because she let all her opportunities fly by for financial security and a title.